[00:00.000] 作词 : Mr.ElegantBrilliant[00:01.000] 作曲 : BlueLee[00:04.934]混音:鹤仙问鹿仙[00:19.704]有人敲门不敢答应[00:21.128]不敢随便接打电话[00:22.627]同事说下班party[00:23.626]想想还是快回家吧[00:24.880]其实我不是怕花钱怕动我的荷包[00:27.131]只是我宁愿承受孤独也不愿去社交[00:29.888]总感觉和这世界有一点点距离[00:32.380]连和人打电话都要提前去预习[00:34.884]也谈了几个恋爱但是头顶总绿[00:37.385]结果对所有人所有事还是感到恐惧[00:40.380]也曾想走出我的舒适圈[00:42.630]但是出来就被别人狠狠锤一拳[00:45.127]连滚带爬回去再把自己心门加固[00:47.635]至此我的内心别人再没办法踏入[00:50.131]他们说我是装的 那我就是装的吧[00:52.884]谁在乎说过让别人受伤的话?[00:55.379]我装社恐难到它给了我生活便利?[00:57.630]你以为每天怕来怕去是我自己愿意?[01:01.625]actually[01:04.132]I don't wanna fear anymore[01:09.880]I want to be[01:12.131]just like u[01:14.892]one of the normal people[01:20.629]焦虑和自卑充斥着我的心里[01:23.128]每次presentation之前都要转发锦鲤[01:25.634]好羡慕那些人能够说个不停[01:27.876]站在台上的我感觉像是公开处刑[01:30.626]没错是我自甘堕落 我太懦弱[01:33.379]我太做作 一切都是我过错[01:35.875]每天躲在十平米的收容所[01:38.382]也不强求有谁真正能够懂我[01:42.132]actually[01:44.386]I want them to have more tolerance[01:50.131]I want to be[01:52.885]just like them[01:55.380]one of the normal people